I don’t want to say this is about me.
But this is about me.
I built this website to serve as my new creative outlet. The subtitle for this blog is called, All of Me. The name came to me in the middle of night (when I do my best creative thinking). I had been praying for a while, specifically seeking God’s direction, and that phrase popped into my mind. But first, let me back up a little…
You know how everyone sets New Year’s Resolutions? Well, I was like, I’m not going to do that because I know myself too well and know I don’t have the discipline to see it through. So what did I do?
I made a resolution.
I’m sure you’re dying to know what it was…well, it happened to be several things. For starters: 1. No more fries 2. No more donuts 3. No more soda. (What can I say, I have a junk food weakness).
Want to know how long it lasted?
A solid month. Yup. I’m that dedicated. I allowed myself “one cheat day” a week. That cheat day turned into two, which inevitably became three, and so on and so on.
But I also thought I would be much more successful if I started some good habits. So I committed to starting the following things: 1. Get on the elliptical for just ten minutes a day, five times a week 2. Read my Bible every day 3. Drink more water!!
Want to know how long those lasted?
Almost two months, for a couple of those. Give me a break—I hate to exercise, okay?
Inevitably, the failure of those New Year’s Resolutions left me feeling disappointed in myself. WHICH IS THE WHOLE REASON I DIDN’T WANT TO DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!
So of course, feeling ashamed—especially not reading my Bible consistently when I am continuously reading and finishing multiple books a week—I went to God. And you know what He said?
“Forget resolutions.”
Maybe not His words exactly, but I’m paraphrasing, people.
Instead, a word continually blazed in my mind over and over. That word was CLOSER.
Closer to what? Closer to God? Closer to family? Closer to friends? Closer to goals? Closer to dreams?
I surmised: closer to ALL.
How does one accomplish such an insurmountable task you ask? By doing it one step at a time. Of course I’m not going to excel at each, but you better bet your booty I’m going to try.
So this is one of my “big leaps” towards a desire God has placed within my heart—to write. It’s always been something I enjoy, but more than that, just like drawing and painting, it brings me closer to God. So this is me, inching my way towards Him.
Why not start a journal?
Well, that is a valid idea, I agree, thank you for mentioning that. But there’s something pretty special about being vulnerable enough to let the world in. Right? Not only that, but I feel God is pushing me towards this. We don’t always have to understand the calling, we just have to be willing to follow it. Am I right?
This is a great big world, and I’m just trying to find my place in it by drawing closer to the One who created me, by giving Him all of me.
Yeah, but what does that mean?
Well, honestly? I don’t know. Ha. I’m still figuring things out. I just told you, people, one step at a time. But here’s what I envision you’ll find on this website…
A place where I share what God’s doing in my life and my hope that you’ll see the good He’s doing in yours.
A place where I hope you’ll find not only a bit of entertainment but encouragement.
A place where you don’t have to compare yourself or feel isolated or any of the other awful things social media so often does. Instead, you will know that you are not alone.
I hope you’ll join me for the ride!
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